Another day is coming to an end…and at the end of this day these are the things I’d like to say..
- I am so thankful for the loving boyfriend I have. He is supportive and caring. He keeps me motivated and helps me remember to keep my head up high. All day long…I think of him, and that’s all :) <3
- I’m super exhausted yet I can’t relax. All I can think about is the future…I wonder if I’ll be having a child sooner than later or not..
- My mother needs to have her kid so she will chill the hell out on the mood swings..that shit is making me crazy!
- I’m more than happy that tomorrow is Friday. Last day of school for the week thank goodness…I hate that place. It’ll be nice to go to work Saturday…it’s so much better than sitting in 6 different classrooms all day.
I suppose that’s all I have to say.
Goodnight.
It is always cruel to laugh at people, of course, although sometimes if they are wearing an ugly hat it is hard to control yourself.
Lemony Snicket (via kari-shma)- I woke up this morning feeling as if I didn’t sleep at all, though I know I slept well last night…& so I was exhausted all day.
- I don’t have any adderoll left to keep me focused in school…so I was completely in my own world all day…on facebook.
- My mom wants to argue with me about every little thing she can.
- I found out that my project is due tomorrow and I have yet to start it..
- My insecurities are through the roof today…and why? I have no clue.
- Right now my phone screen is frozen in the middle of receiving a picture message…how cool is that? ugh.
That’s pretty much it.
you skipped out again, which broke my heart. going to bed. night.
I know the feeling baby sister, keep ur head up.
As of now, I don’t even know what to think…what to feel..what to do. I’m scared out of my mind. I’m trying to keep reminding myself that whatever happens is meant to happen and its happening for a reason…right? I just have to wait now. Wait and see if I’m pregnant or not. I don’t want to look at this negatively though…that isn’t right. I need to keep my head held high, & I need to be ready for whatever is going to happen. The chance is very high…it’s very likely. I just wish I didn’t have to wait to find out. I wish there was a way to know for sure. I just know that the probability is high. I just got off my period on Friday…I’m ovulating…that’s when you’re most likely to get pregnant. SHIT. Well, there is nothing I can do now but wait & prepare the best that I can.
I’m just thankful that I have a supportive boyfriend. He’s someone I can trust and count on to be there for me, do the right thing, and be there for a baby is there is one to come. He’s got a good head on his shoulders & he’s smart. He thinks about the right thing to do before thinking about himself or what he wants to do. He is always worrying about what is best for me, so I know he would do the same for a baby. I just feel so bad. He’s blaming himself for all of this so much. I tried telling him that he can’t only blame himself because it was both of us together who made a bad choice. It takes two people to conceive a child..therefore we are both to blame…not just him alone.
I know that if I am pregnant that there are a lot of thing that I will have to give up. I’m more than willing to do that. I want to give a child a good life. I won’t be selfish or negative. I will be smart, loving, and caring in the best ways that I can. I will put my baby before myself in every situation. My child’s life will be the most important thing in this world and will come first, always, no matter what. I have to do that. I’ve watched many girls have children and do things wrong. I’ve seen them be selfish. I’ve seen them buy material things that they don’t need before buying the clothes, food, or diapers their baby will be needing. I won’t and cannot do that. I won’t allow myself to spend extra money on things for myself just because my child has everything he or she needs at the time…because what happens if a couple weeks later I’m short on money and can’t get my baby diapers. I can’t live with that. I’ll save all of my extra money. I’m going to do this right if it happens. If this isn’t a false alarm…I’m going to do the very best I possibly can…with my amazing boyfriend right by my side.
Pray for me please.
- The Crazies
- The Box
- New Moon
- 2012
- Avatar
Gotta seee em all! :) & I willll.
ahhaaaaa thats whats up! LMAOmegamazing:mezziepooo:rollrightover:fuckyeahcandace:goodbyeastronaut:
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8pm.
Vampire Diarys & House.
Both new episodes & both at the same time.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!? lmao.
