Karli:This is me;*completely.

Do you ever wonder what your life is going to bring? Like, will I get through college? Then, will I get a great job and make really good money? I’ve been thinking about these things kind of alot lately. I want a succesful life. I want my kids to grow up very happy. And the last thing I want to do is fight with my man about money. I’ve seen too many relationships slip away because of money. It is so sad. I want a better life than that. I want a life my family will be proud of. Well, I hope all goes well! :)

pretty-bird:

amandasthoughts:

(via shoutillusion)

I don’t want to lose him, God that is the last thing I want to happen. I love this man to pieces. I have never imagined loving someone this much as being possible…oh but it is. I want to hold on tight and never ever let go. But what do I do when I feel like I do now…hurt…scared…unsure…vulnerable…naive. I feel like there are things going on behind my back that I don’t know about, yet it feels like it’s right in my face and I’m just too blinded by my love for him to really see it. But then I think I’m just imagining it…just because every other guy has fucked me over doesn’t mean this one will too…no not the one who matters more than my life matters to me. It couldn’t be…God please don’t let it be. It’s small things…like a stupid lie…or at least it seems stupid but maybe there is more to it…he could have just told me the truth that his parents didn’t need his help and he was going to do something else. But instead he lied to me and said he went there for a little while…why would he lie about something so small? I don’t understand…I feel like there is a bigger picture that I’m not seeing. Maybe I’m just imagining it all? Maybe I’m too insecure and afraid of my bad luck repeating again and again? God please tell me what it is. I’m so scared to find out 3 months from now that shit is going on behind my back and he has been lying the whole time. IT WOULD KILL ME, WREK ME, TEAR ME INTO A MILLION PIECES, I would be devastated…no pain could ever compare to what I would feel. My love for this man is so complex and indescribable. I love him with every inch of my body, heart, and soul. What do I do? I am so tired of feeling so helpless and stupid…if I question him I feel stupider. I do trust him, at least I think I do…but mostly I blame my own stupid insecurities…thanks to all the past assholes who taught me not to trust. I am so fed up with crying these tears of fear. I honestly am lost…what do I do? I hope to god it’s all in my head. I pray that he truly loves me and cares for me like he says he does…I hope to god that he is as faithful as he says he is…please god, please. I need this love so much, I love him more than anything…don’t let it all slip away…I don’t want to slip away with it again…I wouldn’t make it out alive.

I keep having these horrible dreams. They are all in different places, but it is always me and my boyfriend. I’m pregnant, and then every single time something happens and I have a misscarriage or a stillbirth. It’s scaring the shit out of me. After my misscarriage, exactly 3 weeks ago today, all I can think is what if I’ll never have a succesful pregnancy. I don’t know what to do.

I believe I’d really like a new tumblr theme. It takes forever for me to find a good one that I like though. Wow, maybe I’m just way too picky. Hmmm…this could be.

So next week, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, I have to take the ACT and MME tests! I’m very UNEXCITED about this. First of all, I HATE bubbling in answers. Second of all, I hate taking long tests and these are 3 hours each day! Third of all, I’m super nervous. I really hope I do good. I think I will, but I’m still not 100% sure because I don’t know what to expect. Pray for me people, please.

Tomorrow is Friday. YAY! Fridays are the best. I can’t wait to be out of school, and then I won’t have to go to school the next morning. That’s the best feeling ever. But of course, I do have to get up for work Saturday and Sunday morning. Damn it. Oh well though, I do need the money. I work open to close both days. Those are long days. Oh how exciting….not really.

Well I guess I’m just full of complaints. HAHA. Really though, I love my life right now. It’s really not bad at all. Everything seems to be going smoothly for once. We will see how long this lasts. With my luck….it really won’t be too much long I’m sure. Lol. Whatever :)

Anyway, I’m beat. I think I’m done here & I’m going to go to bed now…after I get off of the phone with the love of my life<3 That’s all. GOODNIGHT!

The depth of your love is like heaven to me.

pretty-bird:overdramatics:sinkyourteethinit:medullaxo:(via baphometjayne)

I’m trying to understand why. Why did God bless me with a pregnancy just to take it away a few days later? I didn’t even know for very long, and then I miscarried. It just seems so unfair. But, maybe it’s supposed to be a second chance to live my life to the fullest before taking on the responsibility of parenthood. I don’t know. Now, I can only believe that God is helping me.