August 2010
1 post
Wonder.
Do you ever wonder what your life is going to bring? Like, will I get through college? Then, will I get a great job and make really good money? I’ve been thinking about these things kind of alot lately. I want a succesful life. I want my kids to grow up very happy. And the last thing I want to do is fight with my man about money. I’ve seen too many relationships slip away because of...
April 2010
2 posts
This love..
I don’t want to lose him, God that is the last thing I want to happen. I love this man to pieces. I have never imagined loving someone this much as being possible…oh but it is. I want to hold on tight and never ever let go. But what do I do when I feel like I do now…hurt…scared…unsure…vulnerable…naive. I feel like there are things going on behind my back...
March 2010
7 posts
Why me?
I keep having these horrible dreams. They are all in different places, but it is always me and my boyfriend. I’m pregnant, and then every single time something happens and I have a misscarriage or a stillbirth. It’s scaring the shit out of me. After my misscarriage, exactly 3 weeks ago today, all I can think is what if I’ll never have a succesful pregnancy. I don’t know...
I decided that I needed a new theme before bed....
I believe I’d really like a new tumblr theme. It takes forever for me to find a good one that I like though. Wow, maybe I’m just way too picky. Hmmm…this could be.
So next week, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, I have to take the ACT and MME tests! I’m very UNEXCITED about this. First of all, I HATE bubbling in answers. Second of all, I hate taking long tests and these...
Two IS better than one :)
The depth of your love is like heaven to me.
I’m trying to understand why. Why did God bless me with a pregnancy just to take it away a few days later? I didn’t even know for very long, and then I miscarried. It just seems so unfair. But, maybe it’s supposed to be a second chance to live my life to the fullest before taking on the responsibility of parenthood. I don’t know. Now, I can only believe that God is helping...
“It just wasn’t meant to be.”
February 2010
5 posts
“& now I know…..I’m pregnant.”
– holy shit.
Ouuuchhh!
My stomach is hurting like hell right now :( I hate this shit. I just want it to go away. I can’t go to school feeling like this, there is no way. Damn it.
“It would be nice to know right now…positive? Negative? Crap.”
I love you baby :)
I wish he was awake right now, I love talking to him. <3 He makes me smile alot. :)
Story of my life:
I NEVER get to sleep in. This is bullshit. :(
December 2009
5 posts
Another day is coming to an end…and at the end of this day these are the things I’d like to say..
I am so thankful for the loving boyfriend I have. He is supportive and caring. He keeps me motivated and helps me remember to keep my head up high. All day long…I think of him, and that’s all :) <3
I’m super exhausted yet I can’t relax. All I can think about is...
“It is always cruel to laugh at people, of course, although sometimes if they are...”
– Lemony Snicket (via kari-shma)
Todays frustrations..
I woke up this morning feeling as if I didn’t sleep at all, though I know I slept well last night…& so I was exhausted all day.
I don’t have any adderoll left to keep me focused in school…so I was completely in my own world all day…on facebook.
My mom wants to argue with me about every little thing she can.
I found out that my project is due tomorrow and I...
“you skipped out again, which broke my heart. going to bed. night.”
– StephieStarz
I know the feeling baby sister, keep ur head up.
As of now, I don’t even know what to think…what to feel..what to do. I’m scared out of my mind. I’m trying to keep reminding myself that whatever happens is meant to happen and its happening for a reason…right? I just have to wait now. Wait and see if I’m pregnant or not. I don’t want to look at this negatively though…that isn’t right. I need...
November 2009
1 post
Movies I want to see :)
The Crazies
The Box
New Moon
2012
Avatar
Gotta seee em all! :) & I willll.
October 2009
19 posts
very tough decision.
8pm. Vampire Diarys & House. Both new episodes & both at the same time. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!? lmao.
“Music is my oasis.”
Im gonna start over now :) #1-you have no idea how...
“I guess that’s the point of it all. No one knows for certain how much impact...”
– Jay Asher (via littlemiss)
Fireflies-Owl City
Oh I suppose you're done ignoring me & making me...
you: hey..
me: hi, its about time.
you: ya...
me: so are you gonna tell me y u were ignoring me?
you: no...what r u doing.
me: sitting on my bed. thinking.
you: bout what
me: take a guess. i bet its not too hard to figure out.
you: that's why i asked..cuz i don't know.
me: I'm just thinking about how fed up i am with getting hurt. weather its something small or something big. & I'm trying to figure out what i did to deserve being ignored. I cant come up with any good explanation.
you: um. i don't think I'm hurting you..whatever i think u trip way too much but whatever..
me: OK you think it doesn't hurt someones feelings when you ignore them for no reason? i don't see how that's trippin way too much. its the truth.
you: OK so be mad at me... goodnight...
me: why are u acting like this all of a sudden? & I'm not mad at u, I'm just upset.
you: I'm not acting like anything..i don't know why ur upset..
me: because the last thing you said is that you would text me if you felt like it. then you never replied to a single thing i said until now. & u wont even tell me why.
you: its fine stop trippin..
me: right..never mind then.
you: ok if ur gonna be a bitch to me i dont wanna talk to you...WHATEVER.
me: im not being a bitch. I just dont understand you sometimes. i dont know. its whatever. forget about it. i dont wanna fight with you.
OMG! PEOPLE.. TELL ME PLEASE, AM I WRONG???
Fuck my life. & Boys SUCK. >:(
I don’t even know what to think. My mind is lost in a sea of confusion. My heart is caught in a storm of anguish. Here we go again… The difference; I’ve grown to care about you.. more than I believed I ever would. So now, this grief you put me through, it’s tearing me up inside. I’m officially at a loss for finding any conclusion. I don’t know what to do.
What is there to do on a Monday night?
Ina-I wanted you.
This is to you.
You are the most complicated person I think I have ever had to deal with! And actually, I don’t have to deal with you, I choose to because I like you. You say you like me too, I believe it. But seriously can you please stop acting so bipolar! It’s making me crazy. I don’t understand what the hell your problem is half the time. I ask you whats wrong (because I KNOW there is...
“there’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix...”
– I read this somewhere, I forget. (via saabmagalona) (via disintegrate) (via lovebot) (via letterboxlove)
wow. way to be SUPER confusing.
“I wish you would stop acting so tough and just show me how you really feel.”
“You don’t necessarily complete me, but something about you keeps me...”
Don't ever give up. You never know if tomorrow is...
(via ventisette)
September 2009
43 posts
Tumblr's drama is like acyber high school....
How am I supposed to talk to you when my phone is totally spazzziinnn out!?!? :( This makes me sad, I miss you.
“What once was lost, now is found.
Although that loss caused much pain, I will...”
Best youtube videos on hair & makeup. →
It's a typical morning.
I didn’t want to wake up. & so I hit snooze about 5 times. Then I got ready and ate like I usually do. School will be the same, of course. I’ll go to all of my classes and do work, take notes, and get homework too, as always. Then cheerleading will be after school too. Nothing new. How boring.
“I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school. They don’t...”
– Neil Gaiman (via quotewhore)
“What made you happy once, might not make you happy now.”
– (via quotewhore)
please dont send me mixed signals.
now that I finally know what I want please don’t take it away from me. we can do this, i know we can. you just gotta have faith and trust in us. were different than anything we have ever had before with anyone else. you and I both know that. lets make it happen. we can be happy. (: